It's getting real

I have definitely been having some strong urges towards someone.  Not that I usually don't, it's just been more intense this week.  I was away for a week and all that was consuming me was her.  I am back now and I just can't get enough.  I want all of her all of the time.  There are changes that I have to make in my life in order to hopefully have her fully and to myself, I just hope she is willing to hang in there with me until they are made.  Each day is better than the next.  Getting to know her and her ways.  Listening to her voice. Her smile.  I love looking at her, really looking within her.  Not just surface but with a deepness and awareness of what a wonderful person she is, what she has to offer, how she makes me feel.  She is special, she is someone and something I wasn't even looking for but here she is right in front of me stealing my heart and me willing to want to give it to her no matter how hard I try and fight it.  I want to know all of her, I want to grow with her.  I want her to know how amazing and beautiful she is everyday.  There is so much to know still and I am looking forward to the ride and the experiences no matter where they bring us.  US.  I like that.  I like her.

"Night Time"

You mean that much to me
And it's hard to show
Gets hectic inside of me
When you go
Can I confess these things
To you
Well I don't know
Embedded in my chest
And it
Hurts to hold

I couldn't spill my heart
My eyes gleam looking in from the dark
I walk out in stormy weather
Hold my words, keep us together
Steady walking but bound to trip
Should release but just tighten my grip

Night time
Sympathize
I've been working on
White lies
So I'll tell the truth
I'll give it up to you
And when the day come
It will have all been fun
We'll talk about it soon

And I couldn't spill my heart
My eyes gleam
Looking in from the dark
I walk out in stormy weather
Hope my words keep us together
Steady walking but bound to trip
Should release but just tighten my grip

Night time
Sympathize
I've been working on
White lies
So I'll tell the truth
I'll give it up to you
And when the day come
It will have all been fun
We'll talk about it soon